Holy Desperation

Feed me with desperation, Lord
Holy Desperation
a desperation washed in Your Blood
graciously pour salve into my
hollowed out eyes
open them to a world dying
and choking in the blood
of it’s desperation

Do I quietly witness?

the open sores of Lazarus

as the rich man,
whose store houses are filled?

Feed me with desperation, Lord
wrestle with my vain flesh
that struggles to stay on
it’s own empty path
littered with flies and plagues,

Feed me with desperation, Lord
awkward breath kicking and
dying in it’s own blood
the sin pours itself as salt
desperately furious
to run to it’s secret evils

Feed me with desperation, Lord
Holy Desperation
i desire the feet of the poor in spirit
to walk where the lame and the backward
search out and carve desperation

Feed me with a desperation
that hungers for Righteousness
A Holy Desperation
a battle cry to cleanse a heart
disintegrated in its ashes
squeeze the tears, Lord

smash the strongholds
who stubbornly hold me
barbed wires around
emotions
who refuse Your binding

Holy Spirit smile upon me
lead me to the Living Waters
take me deep into it’s depths

daily drown me
the pieces of a sinner
bathe daily in Your Blood
to be forgiven
purged 7x in Your Fires

let Your Merciful desperation break
the pride of this world

let Your Glory reveal our desperation
and need for Your Lordship

let the Atonement of the Cross
lead men to you in the desperation
of this perverted generation.

Our prayers to You Father
Our prayers seep from desperation
From Haiti to Japan
from Alabama to New Orleans

where desperation
feeds as locusts
bring us to You
wherever there are wounds
men cannot close
wherever there are tears
rain desperation

Pour generously
where Your Oil should be

Feed me with Holy Desperation
that I have run from the
priests of Baal worshippers
with tearings and cuttings

Bleed the desperation
Gently You peel me
of this leperous life

Give me a Holy Desperation
teach me to pray
teach me to preach
teach me to seek after You.

break the chains of my fear
desperation dissolve it with tears

Take religious piety
from us,
this God theology
we cut into strips
thinking it will suffice
to cover wounds so black
and so deep with refuse

this unholy desperation
spreads its seeds
opens its false gospel
with a broken mouth

spews forth its lies
it makes anguish
of it’s followers
no rest

Only Holy Desperation
to know the deeper places
of the wounds of Jesus
suffering with His children
in the ignoble places

Let Desperation
set flames in the loins
make me search for You
listen intently Your Still Voice
in the silence

Desperation chooses
a narrow road
a treacherous road
the road of little comfort
there is no map to find
and search

Desperation
set my path for God.
blindly, groping,
to set your feet where
The Holy Spirit takes
there is no blueprint
for the desperate heart
crying in the mire,
crying in the blood,
crying in the thick black womb
about to be torn

Desperation teach me your
own language
to Heaven
unutterable, groaning
set my arms to praise
oblivious of time

holy desperation
reach into the crevices
where You send
send us,
into the thick of the fog

whose soul has lost all discretion

a soul aflame knows no custom
but for desperation
only Jesus will quench the thirst
the burning and drowning

only Jesus is the tongue
of desperation

for nothing else can fill
a desperate soul

beyond the pale,
my falling corpse from a jagged cliff,

JESUS is the last
breath

the only prayer
i make

Amen Lord Jesus.