God, i want to be broken

God, i want to be broken
a beautiful reckoning
grasping away from
this world
into Your arms
i throw the dreams
that went awry
dissolved inside
fused the anguish
inscribed silent prayers
born of the violence
in me
i claw the quiet desperation
that seeks solitude within
Your Holy Breath
i cannot stay away
Strip the flesh from me
to reveal who i really am
not just woman
but a shining conundrum
to me now
immortal and glorified in
You
pour all the tears
out of me
cleanse a heart
who knows only
the deceit of its nature
scatter the ashes
of my dying
create storms
to cast out
what You do not
desire in me
let prayer suffer
in me
until my many sins
begin to be crucified
let me say with Paul,

“i have been crucified with Christ”

begin to absolve the scars
whose memory
cause my hatred
Let my sins bleed
out of me
before Holy God
bow my head
before My King
humility a beautiful
jewel
my brokenness
the treasure i grope for
in the eternity
between God and myself
a union of souls
is my religion

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